I ran off with a cult leader? Really?

In the spirit of keeping things in the light, and in truth…I will write this post.  And I really don’t want to-but I refuse to let the darkness spread its cloud over light. My ex husband has been spewing his anger to people in my community, and to our two little girls 7 and 5 respectably. I am here to set the record strait.

I left my ex husband because he was physically, mentally and emotionally abusive. All of my five children were tormented from listening and hearing us fight for years…morning until night with breaks of peace in between. I went the last 6 months before I left him-ignoring him…and he thought it was the best we ever got along.

The last year and a half of our marriage I supported a huge family with my online marketing company. Out of desperation of not paying our bills, our debts and living on hopes of another film project going through almost put us in the streets. With little babies under me I started working from my computer, and found a way to make $140,000 the first year. It barely got us out of debt and kept us alive. Because of bad economy, and choices we lost our last home in Montecito, CA at the same time I filed for divorce.

He threw an office chair at me in front of our house mate, which he takes my ex’s side that it wasn’t exactly ‘thrown, mearly pushed’…and my children and their sleepover friends. This accompanied yelling and swearing-I finally gave it my last ‘everything’ and short of small hurricane I said I will have no more of this. No more choking, no more swearing, no more anger, no more mental games, no more yelling in front of the babies (who tried to stop him). No more. No more. No more.

I filed for divorce. That same month, the opening was made…and my twin flame stepped in. I met him after I asked and filed for divorce. Almost a mirror of myself. Musician, artist, actor, spiritual man, but he is a talented amazing psychic medium. I moved out and got a cute, small house in Montecito. My ex was going to be homeless, and because we still shared the responsibilities of our kids, he had to have a home-otherwise I wouldn’t care. So, I let him stay in my home while I was traveling for business and pleasure. I took my first vacation in 3 years. (or more)

When I came home, he had not paid the rent. I came back sick from India, and needed to be in bed for 3 weeks. I lost my cute little house. He paid nothing. He also took my second car that I owned. Free and clear, and still has not paid a dime. I can go on and on and on.

But this is not the story he tells. I have sinced moved happily on with my life, and I took the year to heal and be still and healthy again. I have communicated with him a million times…he is just angry and hates my now fiancée. So my little girls hear him on the phone telling people ‘I forced him to live in his car (my car). I left him for another man. I took all his money.’ I have to explain to them that they are not supposed to hear this type of talk from their father-and to walk out of the room. And it is all false, pretty much the opposite of what he says.

He tells people (and it comes back to me) that I ran off with a spiritual cult leader and left my children. His anger and aggression is so fierce towards me and him it scares people when he tells them these stories. He  has been mean, name calling, and hateful towards my fiancée and has called him every name in the book to his face. He barely has the decency to say hello to him in public.

He tries to put on a good cover, he tries to sell this story to all of our old mutual friends who I am now estranged from. (some I moved on from anyway) He has sold his story to anyone who will listen. He has tried to even get me to buy it. The truth is I found peace. I found my own love for myself, my own strength, I found my own truth. I have found my story of my ex husbands, the story of their abuses to me from physical, mental, emotional to adultery to be my foundation and stepping stone to my own freedom.

I found another life waiting out there for me of the brightest skies, the warmest hugs, the most beautiful smiles that have embraced me. My fiancée is the most beautiful man I have ever met, a warrior of Truth and Love. He helps hundreds of people a week around the world. I have witnessed lives transformed in one session or group with him. He speaks from everyone from New York Time Best Sellers, Celebrities, housewives, homeless, felons to children. I have learned so much about Divinity is in our Humanity. I have learned about my role with my children and transformed my relationship with them 100%. We are not religious, we do not follow an organized way of living, we do not have any place we meet and there is nothing but us sharing a more empowered loving life.

I am still detoxing, and healing. I am still healing every day. But enough is enough, my silence will not help anyone. I do not walk around talking or thinking about my ex husband. I simply don’t want that negative vibration in my body. But enough with the slander and the lies.

Now these beautiful children get to see a healthy relationship, and happy mother who provides them a safe, loving home to always come to when they are with me.

This is my beautiful Twin Flame that our marriage will be on 11-11-11.

and this is my ex below:

The old me with him

Before

This shortly before I left him. I was sick, over worked, mentally, emotionally exhausted. I don’t even know this woman. I took care of everyone else but me.

This is pretty much how he looks now. I have speculated mental illness.

This is me now:

AFTER: This me now after almost 2 years

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